Hey everyone! I found myself in a fix a few days ago and I was having a hard time figuring out what to do or what happens next.
It looks like things I had planned may not happen the way I hoped they would. And if that’s the case, then it’s a chain reaction from there and so many things change for me. I was discussing my limbo state with a friend and he told me how so many people’s plans, including his, have been affected because of Covid-19 so I thought maybe I could share the little hope I now have with anyone else who might be in similar shoes.
“Grow through what you go through.”
I am a strong believer of “If things don’t work out as planned then something better is coming for you.” I tend to have a picture of how things should go for me in a particular period of time and in moments like now, when my mental picture is not what I’m physically seeing, I have a really hard time accepting it even when I have no other choice. I just have to let my mentality match or catch up with reality.
That’s the thing about life, it has disappointments. You just never expect them but somehow you have to live with them. There are certain things in life we have no control over. Time, people’s feelings for you, when a pandemic shows up etc and that’s okay. I have been slowly accepting the unknown. Accepting that I really don’t know what will happen to me tomorrow or where I’ll be in the next four months and again, that’s okay. It’s important to forgive yourself and not beat yourself up over things you had no idea would happen or things you can’t control.
“You may not control all the events that happen to you, but you can decide not to be reduced by them.”- Maya Angelou
If something was meant for you, trust me it would have been yours. Or maybe now just isn’t the best time for it to happen. One thing this period of uncertainty has made me ask myself is what do I really mean when I tell God “I surrender everything to your hands.” or “May your will be done.”? If I genuinely believed those words when I said them then maybe I would not be freaking out the way I was a couple of days ago or filled with worry trying to analyze the best and worst that could happen or trying to figure out how to get out of this situation with minimal damage. If truly you surrender all your plans to God and you know that your plans aren’t, or may not be in line with, God’s plans, when your plans fail, why should you worry? That’s something I’ve been figuring out and working on lately.
So if you’re like me and it seems things are not going according to your plans, it’s okay. With time things will work out so have faith. Hold on to the hope that if your plan doesn’t seem to be the one in effect, then God’s plan is and it just so happens that your plan wasn’t his.
“Life has an odd way of making things work out in the end.”
Here’s another thing about life, it happens the way it should. Maybe this is happening to me because these are lessons I was supposed to learn or other things I don’t know. I could come up with 101 theories but what I do know for sure is there is a time for everything, a time when things will work out and when things won’t. One last thing about life is it’s full of little surprises so be on the lookout for those. Everything will work out just for you.
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